A Fallen Angel Under A Dark Moon

I stole this from Heather, because she stole one from me... *grin* I tried to get detailed with this one... You might learn some very interesting things about me...

Things that scare me.

Death - mine and those I love
Dying without anyone by my side
Being emotionally alone
Never finding the answers I seek
The possibility that there are no answers
Dark moonless nights with cold howling winds
Fire, the only exception being candles and well-grated fireplaces

People who make me laugh.

Ken
Omar
Heather
Denny
Rick
Chris Rock
Margaret Cho

Things I hate most.

Willfully ignorant people
Religious zealots (of any religion)
Straight people who think any other orientation is "sick" or "perverted"
People who think being wealthy makes them "better" than others
Partisan Politics
"Hooker wear" for teenage girls
Meaningless/Pointless/Senseless television programmes for children

Things I don't understand.

Man's inhumanity to his fellow man (that includes women too!)
Radical Muslims who think killing and dying is "beautiful" and "holy"
People who think doing evil to evil-doers is okay
"Good" Christians who preach hate
Racial prejudice of any kind
Families who *really* hate each other
"Friends" who put you down

Things I'm doing right now.

Answering this quiz
E-mailing
Drinking orange spice tea
Being lovingly mauled by a dog
And ignored by my cat
Listening to MeatLoaf and singing along (Jim Steinman is a *God*!)
Thinking of my Beloved

Things I want to do before I die.

Meet Sir Elton John (and maybe sing "Daniel" with him)
Visit Machu Picchu and dance on the mountaintop
Sail "Alexa" (my boat) to Fiji and retire there
Learn to speak Spanish
Give *all* of myself to just one person
Reconcile with my family
Reconcile with the gods

Things I can do.

Read music, sing, and play almost any instrument
Speak ten languages conversationally and seven others passably
Ballroom dance like Ginger Rogers
Read Classical Latin, Greek, and Egyptian hieroglyphics
Skilled in fencing, kickboxing, and karate, and a decent archer
Spin on a spinning wheel and weave on a loom
Love without condition, even when it's hopeless

Ways to describe my personality.
(Borrowed from my Johari Window)

Intelligent
Knowledgeable
Idealistic
Reflective
Friendly
Loving
Complex

Things I can't do.

Cook anything more complicated than scrambled eggs without a concise recipe
Housekeeping - I can't do it because I hate it
Get anywhere on time without tricking myself by setting my watch ahead
Use public transportation without irritation - too many people invading my personal space
Love in half-measure - what I love, I love passionately
Live in everyone else's mundane world - I refuse to see even the dullest thing without a touch of magic
Let go of the past

Things I think you should listen to.

Every kind of music you can get your hands on (with one exception - see below)
The voice of Deity in the wind, the sound of water, and the songs of beasts
The song of your heart and the whisper of your soul
The laughter and weeping of children
The rhythm of the rain and the thunder of the tempest
Every voice that speaks to you in love

Things you should never listen to.

Music that glorifies violence, abuse, and cruelty (That's not music)
Words that are the linguistic equivalent of venom and acid
The dark side of your soul in the heat of your anger
Nails on a chalkboard

Things I'd like to learn.

To read and write Japanese (I can speak it conversationally, but am mostly illiterate)
To read and write Cantonese (Same reason as above)
How to cook effortlessly and exquisitely
How to write a literary masterpiece
Learn how to play tennis better
How to say "no" to certain people
To be happy just making myself happy

Favorite foods.

Sauté Scallops with Miso Sauce
Linguine with Clams
Veal Parmigiana
Sicilian Style Cannoli
Shrimp Fried Rice with Char Siu
Bok Choy Won Ton Soup
Jeanette's Cajun Chicken Gumbo

Beverages I drink regularly.

Water
Milk
Orange Juice
Iced and hot teas
Homemade cappuccinos
Red wine
Guinness Draught

Shows I watched as a kid.

None actually, because we had no television (by choice, not poverty)

List 10 of your faults.

1. I am not punctual - that is to say, I never get anywhere but to work on time (and to do that I get up several hours early), I almost never return phone calls the same day, and dinner is almost never on the table before 7pm...

2. I am a bad friend, correspondence wise - I write and call infrequently, I get busy with life stuff and it falls by the wayside... I don't mean to do this, but I can become easily distracted...

3. I avoid unpleasant truths - As hyper-aware as I am of much of the wickedness in the world/my life, I tend to play an avoidance/placation game with it, whereby I live as if it's not happening... This is a *very* bad thing about me... Especially since it means I don't confront/dispose of these evils...

4. I am dependant on those I love to be happy - As independent as I am in other areas of my life (and willful too!), I cannot be happy unless those I love are happy (and are happy with me)... Without my support network, I am only a shadow of what I could be, and within that network, the loss of certain individuals can be more detrimental than others...

5. I am capable of doing extreme things to make those I love happy - Even to the point of hurting myself to do it... This "people pleasing" aspect of my psyche is the one I struggle with the most...

6. I am a deep disappointment to my family - In an effort to free myself from the most pernicious "people pleasing" aspect of my life, I have abandoned all family traditions, expectations, and class status... This has caused a horrible rift in the family harmony that I am still trying to heal and may never be able to...

7. I am persnickety in the extreme - While I won't chastise others for their lack of order and neatness, I will quietly pick up everything that is where I don't think it belongs and stow it away where I feel is appropriate... This annoys the living hell out of people, especially when they can no longer find their things...

8. I can be an arrogant elitist - As ashamed as I am to admit it, there are people I don't feel are worthy of my time or company... And it is an intellectual elitism, because if I don't feel you meet my mental level, I'll be kind to you but I will not really associate more than that... If I call you friend, it is because I find you to be of high intellectual calibre... And that's both complimentary and insulting of me, I think...

9. I am too materialistic - I love pretty things, shiny things, silky things, nifty things... Basically anything that has some aesthetic or entertainment value, and I spend *way* too much money on these things... Never money I don't really have, but I'll balance my budget to do with less necessities sometimes to get a thing I don't really *need*, but want...

10. I am too fae - I intuitively "know" too many things about people I've never been told... I've seen spirits... I feel what others feel as they feel it and share too much of their joy or their grief... It makes me a creepy person to be around for many people...

THIS WEEK'S SUNDAY SEVEN QUESTION:
Name up to seven magazines that you either have subscribed to, currently subscribe to, or would subscribe to if money were no object.

All of these are current subscriptions:

1. National Geographic
2. Archaeology
3. Current World Archaeology
4. Forbes
5. Rolling Stone
6. Revolver
7. Spin

From science to pop culture... Yes, I *am* a complicated girl... *smile*

I'd fallen out of the habit, but I'm getting back into it, so without further ado, The Saturday Six... The first one in a long while...

1. You find out that you've just gotten a new job in a different state. Which room of your home will be the most difficult to get packed and why?

My bedroom, because all of my personal tshatshkes and precious valuables are in there - many of them breakable...

2. Which room is most likely to contain the greatest number of items that you should throw away, but haven't, yet?

Every other room in the place...

3. What is your single greatest strength and single greatest weakness if you were to enter the dating scene tomorrow?

Greatest strength: that I am a people-pleaser/Greatest weakness: that I am a people-pleaser

4. Take the quiz: What are your dating strengths and weaknesses?

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Appearance - 87.5% 2. Independence - 85.7% 3. Varied Interests - 85.7% 4. Open-Mindedness - 81.8% 5. Confidence - 77.8%	1. Vanity - 83.3% 2. Arrogance - 62.5%

Dating Strengths Explained
Appearance - Despite what some will say, appearance matters in dating. You get high marks on appearance. Just make sure you balance it out with other qualities. Independence - Your strong sense of independence comes in handy while dating. You are not held back or tied down; you are free to pursue your interests. Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of men. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available men. Confidence - You are sure of yourself and confident of your abilities. Displays of confidence go a long way when attracting a date.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial. Arrogance - You are a bit full of yourself. You need to practice a little humility now and then, as arrogance can be a turn-off.
Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz

5. What's the biggest surprise from this quiz's findings?

I would have said I'm more arrogant than vain, and I don't think I would have rated my vanity at 83%... But maybe that's my vanity talking... *grin*

6. Would you ever go out on a blind date with someone you'd met online if you'd never talked to them through any other method than email?

If I'd talked to them via e-mail awhile, sure, why not...? If he/she turned out to be psychotic, I am quite able to defend myself...

After that last post, I decided to lighten up on the seriousness and just post something silly... So here's another insight into how I think... Stolen shamelessly from Kenada...

1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
George W. Bush... Now I'll just go and wait for FBI/CIA/Secret Service to come arrest me as a potential terrorist assassin for saying that... (I just thought turn-about might be fair play, that's all...)

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
Any and all "gangsta" rappers... Music should never be used to spout poison...

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
My foster daughter's father...

4. What is your favorite cheese?
Provolone

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal.
Thinly sliced pastrami on rye, with spicy brown mustard and sauerkraut...

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie (porn counts) celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Well now this would have to be multiple choice in my case - Porn (Female) : Jenna Jameson/Non-Porn (Female) : Jeri Ryan/Porn (Male) : None Really/Non-Porn (Male) : Vincent D'Onofrio

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who do you pick?
Again with the multiple choice - Female: Amy Lee (Evanescence)/Male: David Bowie

8. Now that you've slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
I would buy this for my foster daughter, Kit, who is just starting to play...

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
Orlando, Florida

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, what are you gonna do?
Probably wait for three hours til Heather gets around to picking me up at the airport... But thanks to that hundred dollars, I'll be shopping while I wait...

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. It is...?
Moet & Chandon

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
1210, Mongolia - to meet Temüjin Borjigin (Ghengis Khan)

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
"Do unto others as you would have done unto you - because I'll do unto you as you do unto others..."

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what's the premise?
It would be called "Who Wants To Marry A Broke Rocker?" and it would be designed to get Jair a woman, or at least get laid once in a while...

15. What is your favorite curse word?
All of them... *evil grin*

16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Use this opportunity to perfect my knowledge of ancient Egyptian language and gain a genuine ancient Egyptian accent...

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what's the item?
My signet ring

18. The Angel Of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel Of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour?
Commit every carnal sin possible in that time with my Beloved... I'm going to Hell anyway, right...?

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?
Mind reading - if you can see the thoughts of others, the world is yours...

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
The last half hour I spent with David before he died...

21. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? (the answer "nothing" doesn't count)
The death of my sister...

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit... you can move to anywhere else in the world! Bitchin'! What country are you going to live in now?
England - I already have a place to live there...

23. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be?
The Intrepid Fox, London

24. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question.... If you did, then we'll just expand on that. Check it out... Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like "Dude, check it out... I can FLOAT!"?
Mine, to thwart those damned Jehovah's Witnesses that come knocking every Sunday...

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier have given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?
Jim Morrison

26. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn't think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
my uncle, David

27. What's your theme song?
"The End Of The Innocence" by Don Henley